"My soul lies somewhere between Yin-Yang Coz I've devil's soul with a heart of an angel, And a devilish look with an angel's smile, That's why I crush people's souls with tears in my eyes. And still, look like a silly boy with eyes full of lies."
It's all about me and my soul, about a guy that resides in me. I'm a guy who's the devil in my own heaven, or I'm an angel in his hell. It's all about something that defines my behavioral double personality. One that is innocent and a good guy with a kind and helpful heart despite all the traumatic past experience, And then there is this other guy, who literary doesn't give a shit about how others feel. For him the first priority is always him, no one else comes above it, which is somehow a good thing but not always.
I often ask people, what do you see when you look at me, and often their answer is a positive note making my devil laugh at me. Or if they know about the devil inside me, then it's my innocent self that seems to feel bad. But all in all, at the end of the day it's all about me whose happiness matters the most.
And somehow it's a virtue for me also, as it maintains the balance between my personalities. As in today's world, you can't be too good to people as it'll only give you pain and misery not because you were good to them, but because you were good to everyone and you can't distinguish between who's actually good to you and who's just using you for their own good. And when you got to know about them that makes you feel disheartened and make you feel like a fool which was only a kind of toy for others to get their work done by you.
And, now in every situation, my personality got me thinking that what should I do next, think of others first, or think about myself first. And sometimes not doing anything in a particular situation is better than doing something to work things out. And because of this now I'm a very calm and composed person as per the opinions of the others. Cuz not giving an immediate reaction is a better option than racing and regretting it later.
No matter how bad the situation is firstly you should always get the idea of its depth and how it can affect others. After taking all this into your consideration then you should take any further steps, and that's what I learned from my different personalities. It's quite helpful in real life.